Dear Jake,
I cannot believe that you are six months old today! I'm sure you are so big and so cute. I'm sure you are getting close to crawling. You were pretty laid back when we got to be with you in the hospital, so you might just be super chill and content with watching the world go by. I'm sure your mom will be okay with that.
It's hard to believe that it has been six months since we have seen you. I think about you all of the time. We were in South OKC the other day and eating at a restaurant. I caught myself looking around to see if you and your family were there. I would love to see what you looked like and see how big you've gotten. Every time we drive north on I-35, I can see the hospital where you were born. Blake and I laugh about that crazy night in the hospital where we had to dodge a crazy grandma and we all three spent the night in a tiny lactation room. And you are a legend at Deaconess!
I still get sad when I think about you, but it has gotten easier over time. It was an honor to be your Mama for 18 hours. I am so thankful that I got to hold you and watch Blake brush your hair after your first bath. You loved it! I think that first 18 hours, you might have spent a total of five minutes in your bassinet because we could not put you down! We savored our time together, and while it broke my heart to leave you there, I knew that you were not supposed to be ours. I know your mom, dad, and brother are so thankful that you are theirs. That's what God planned all along and I'm glad we got to be a part of your journey.
You will never know me and will never know who I am, and that's okay. I want you to know that I am thankful for you and will be praying for you as often as I think of you. There's a little boy at church who was born two days after you. His mom is one of my best friends and we had hoped that you two boys would be best buds someday. I am thankful for him because he reminds me of you. I pray that you are safe and happy. I pray that you are healthy. I pray that you will know Jesus someday. I pray for your mom and dad and their salvation. I have embraced my role as someone who prays for you and I will continue to walk in faith that God used those eighteen hours for His glory.
You are loved, little guy. We miss you and love you!
Carol
I cannot believe that you are six months old today! I'm sure you are so big and so cute. I'm sure you are getting close to crawling. You were pretty laid back when we got to be with you in the hospital, so you might just be super chill and content with watching the world go by. I'm sure your mom will be okay with that.
It's hard to believe that it has been six months since we have seen you. I think about you all of the time. We were in South OKC the other day and eating at a restaurant. I caught myself looking around to see if you and your family were there. I would love to see what you looked like and see how big you've gotten. Every time we drive north on I-35, I can see the hospital where you were born. Blake and I laugh about that crazy night in the hospital where we had to dodge a crazy grandma and we all three spent the night in a tiny lactation room. And you are a legend at Deaconess!
I still get sad when I think about you, but it has gotten easier over time. It was an honor to be your Mama for 18 hours. I am so thankful that I got to hold you and watch Blake brush your hair after your first bath. You loved it! I think that first 18 hours, you might have spent a total of five minutes in your bassinet because we could not put you down! We savored our time together, and while it broke my heart to leave you there, I knew that you were not supposed to be ours. I know your mom, dad, and brother are so thankful that you are theirs. That's what God planned all along and I'm glad we got to be a part of your journey.
You will never know me and will never know who I am, and that's okay. I want you to know that I am thankful for you and will be praying for you as often as I think of you. There's a little boy at church who was born two days after you. His mom is one of my best friends and we had hoped that you two boys would be best buds someday. I am thankful for him because he reminds me of you. I pray that you are safe and happy. I pray that you are healthy. I pray that you will know Jesus someday. I pray for your mom and dad and their salvation. I have embraced my role as someone who prays for you and I will continue to walk in faith that God used those eighteen hours for His glory.
You are loved, little guy. We miss you and love you!
Carol
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